Cowgirl IT UP! (Chicks N’ Chaps Event 2017)

When I was in grade school I had a good friend named Levi. It is safe to say that he was my first major crush. I loved his freckles and odd elastic skin. I would always sit with him on the school bus, invite him to my birthday parties, and one time we watched Ice …

Sayonara Chemo

Alright, breathe in, chest back, shoulders up... and breathe out. Repeat, several times. Do you feel that? The ultimate sigh of relief. I know I do. I feel like I have been holding my breath for the last 20 weeks. Mom, told me back in March about her diagnosis and ever since then it has …

A Place in The Son

Fifteen years ago, as of yesterday,  my father passed away. I know this like I know four is the answer to two plus two. The kind of fact that is deep rooted into your well being and hides there for all of time. For the last ten years or so I have been able to …

It’s My Chemo and I’ll Smile If I Want To

I write my blog so I have chance to be honest. Gut wrenchingly honest. I want people to know all of the thoughts that run through my mind (ok not ALL). However illogical or logical. With the risk of sounded conceded, I know that I am a wise girl. I have been through a lot …

Fear Never Leaves

Mom said something to me that struck a chord. Her words hit me like a freight train headed west. She was talking about the support group she attends every week and how there is this fourteen year breast cancer surviver who attends as well. I have heard her mention the surviver before this conversation but …

Wake Me Up When Chemo Ends

Yesterday I told my mom that if she wanted too I could keep giving her sleeping pills and let her sleep her way through the rest of chemo. Making the joke, "wake me up when chemo ends..." Much like the famed Green Day song, "Wake Me Up When September Ends." I told my mom that …

Little Things

For the first time in a long time I feel semi-well rested. I find it amazing how becoming a parent basically means you enter the land of zombiedom. I felt like I survived parenting "boot-camp" when I made it to month three. Cherri was taking naps, happy, and sleeping through the night. Life was good. …

I’m Not God

I'm not sure what the right word is, ignorant maybe? I feel as though I am at a loss for words. It's not writers block as much as it is guilt of the mind. I have no clue what needs to be said and how to say it. My mother would never say anything, her …

Going through the big “C” and I don’t mean Chlamydia

Finally.  David and I are starting to feel better. It started off as a headache that wouldn't quit, then the sore throat, the undying cough, nasal congestion, and for me an ear ache that hurt so bad I actually took a pain leftover from my previous surgery. Goodness.  I have been hibernating in the dank, …

Blessings, Bravery & Chics N Chaps

I like to believe that for every bad thing that happens in life that something good will happen too. However long you have to wait for the good to happen, it does, eventually. Even if its somethings as small as winning a free ice cream cone from DQ. Good happens. I feel as though I have …